tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-26773294788912245982024-02-20T00:37:04.743-08:00Daisies in Bloom"The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail." Isaiah 58:11Jengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.comBlogger19125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-65160616601306942852016-05-29T15:43:00.002-07:002016-05-29T15:43:47.878-07:00Getting Back on the Saddle :) I am definitely not the best or most consistent blogger in the world. Point in case...it has been almost 2 years to the day since the last time I blogged. I definitely wish that I had continued blogging during that time as I had so much happen in my life that included losing a job, moving across the country, getting a new job, living with 3 other women I didn't know in a house and now...having now been back home for almost 2 years I guess it is a good time to try and get back in to this. <br />
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As believers and followers of Christ, we are called to love each other. That seems like a simple thing, right? Not so much when we are so involved in ourselves, our schedules & our lives. We so desperately want to be loved by those around us, we end up not really loving those around us well sometimes. Love is one of those things that doesn't require a big bank account, fancy clothes or eloquent words. <br />
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For those that are struggling today with loving others and putting others ahead of you...you are not alone. Take a small risk for someone today. Ask someone around you, what is happening in their world and really listen. Call or text someone a message that let's them know you are thinking about them. It is a risk to put ourselves out there, but the reward is so worth it. <br />
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There are two commands for us as believers...to LOVE the Lord our God with all of our heart, soul, mind & strength and to LOVE our neighbor as ourself. I read this quote from Frederick Buechner and I think you will agree that this is simple and amazing all at once. It says, "wherever people love each other and are true to each other and take risks for each other, God is with them and for them and they are doing God's will." <br />
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May we love each other with a reckless abandon :)Jengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-17224878013809332882014-06-02T18:21:00.001-07:002014-06-02T18:23:31.003-07:0010 long weeksI want to go ahead and acknowledge the randomness & scatter-brained blog below...I think my heart is just a little vulnerable and raw tonight, which equals randomness ;)<br />
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I am one of those girls that tends to cement important dates or events in my mind. Whatever the memory is I somehow keep these details locked up in a filing type of system in my brain. Usually, to have those types of memories locked up hasn't proven to be the best for me because Satan uses those to either bring me down or make me feel bad about myself. (I'm trying more recently to BE PRESENT and a byproduct of that...I hope...is to start having more happy memories in those filing cabinets that will outnumber the yuck memories.) At any rate, one of those memories is that 10 weeks ago I had a crushing blow. If you don't know what I'm talking about, you can read more <a href="http://jennifer-gates.blogspot.com/2014/04/life-is-messymine-included.html" target="_blank">here</a>. I messed up. I hit a real low in my personal, spiritual & emotional life 10 weeks ago that impacted many people, including one of my best friends. It has been the hardest 10 weeks...70 days...that I have probably been through since becoming a Christian over 15 years ago when I realized the weight of my sin.<br />
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I have been so broken over how much I've hurt people in my life that I love. I know that I'm a work in progress, but most days to be honest that doesn't really help much when I'm hurting so very bad. When all I want is to have a friendship back that I hurt by being this way. Most days I don't know what I'm doing. Most days I am flailing and feeling so raw & vulnerable. During this time hasn't been all hard as the Lord is working on my heart & my hurts. He has been showing me new ways to love & be loved. New ways to embrace the good around me. Unfortunately, change takes time and these things in my life take A LOT of change as Jesus is picking up my broken pieces.<br />
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Just the reality of it being 10 weeks since I've really had a good heart to heart with one of my best friends. 10 weeks since I've felt like my life was normal...but maybe it wasn't normal. I don't know. 10 weeks where most honestly it has felt like I've been walking through the deepest/loneliest valley I've ever known. I still don't know most days how to process what I'm feeling, learning or thinking, but I know that the Lord has a great plan for all that I'm going through. He is in control and I trust Him. I just want to be faithful to the One that is holding me together.<br />
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~JengaJengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-9103527662037790142014-05-24T18:19:00.000-07:002014-05-24T18:19:49.793-07:00Extrovert living in an introvert's body<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The older I get the more I realize just how much of an extrovert I truly am. I would say that I am 75% extrovert and 25% introvert. Is it possible to think of it in percentages? Ha ha! I love being with people, having deep conversations, listening to stories & laughing, connecting with friends, etc. Because I live alone I think that I get PLENTY of time by myself ;) (Confession: I end up going to Target just to be with people...lame...but true.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">With it being Memorial Day weekend and because my friends are either already busy with plans or out of town I decided to go alone to the falls up near Multnomah Falls. I absolutely love the falls. I love how connected to God it makes me feel. There is just something spectacular about seeing that kind of beauty up close. The rush of the water over the ledge; the enormous rocks that have been beaten up over time because of the water, but continue to remain faithful to being a part of the beauty. It was breath-taking. At first it was hard being there alone, but quickly God allowed me to be thankful for where I was and what He wanted just He and I to experience together. I even got to have a nice conversation with a sweet couple visiting from England, which was just what I needed to not feel so alone. He provides in ways that we don't even realize we need, until we reflect on our days. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I never want to take God's creation for granted. Today is one of those days where I am made speechless by it and enjoyed soaking up the sheer awesomeness, even if I was by myself :) May each of us remember that God uses things in our lives that draws our heart closer to His and He just wants to be WITH us...abide with Him.</span><br />
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<br />Jengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-90236457104699974432014-05-17T15:27:00.005-07:002014-05-17T15:45:53.296-07:00The importance of being gratefulMany times throughout my life I've been told to be grateful for whatever I have. To appreciate the moment or people around you that you are with. For too long I've taken people, experiences, and I guess life for granted. I've not been fully appreciative of the moment and therefore, have missed out on some of the joys of being present. I think about trips I've been on or times out with friends where I am not present because I dread it ending instead of living in and enjoying the present. Oh how I wish I could go back, but with this type of revelation comes the knowledge that the journey continues as I learn & I can make conscious changes to be present..<br />
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For the past couple of years I've tried to listen to the Holy Spirit's direction on what word he would want me to live by for the year. This year the word(s) "be present" are what I've tried to live by. To be honest...I haven't done a great job. I'm sure my friends can attest to the fact that I haven't been the best active listener or made the most effort to actually be present. Knowing this about myself, I've definitely tried to be present. To be all in for whatever event or person that I am spending time with. I feel like the more grateful I am for what I'm doing or who I'm with, the more present I will be or want to be.<br />
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I'm certainly not saying I have this all figured out, but it is something else new that I have discovered about myself these past couple of months. Take moments today to be grateful. Whether you are grateful for your health, a moment, spending time with friends or family, or anything else that makes your heart smile. Be present in all the moments. You will quickly see how much you have to be grateful for. Things I'm grateful for: yummy food :), roof over my head, friends that love me, family that supports me from far away, daisies, sun, blue skies, my best friends and so much more. What about you? What are you grateful for?<br />
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~JengaJengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-9016503451982650932014-05-13T16:11:00.000-07:002014-05-13T16:11:26.958-07:00Trust without bordersIn a post not too long ago I mentioned how I connect through worship. It literally has become my heart's cry to know Jesus more through worship. One of my favorite songs is Oceans by Hillsong United. You may be familiar with it. I first heard it at a Hillsong concert in Portland last year that I went to with my good friend, KaoXu. When I went, I had no idea what to expect because I had never been to one of their concerts, but I was familiar with Compassion International and so KaoXu was going to volunteer to pass out packets, so I decided to volunteer as well. Little did I know that I would be so deeply moved by a song. Here are just a couple lines from the song:<br />
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<i>When oceans rise</i></div>
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<i>My soul will rest in Your embrace</i></div>
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<i>For I am Yours and You are mine</i></div>
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<i>Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders</i></div>
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<i>Let me walk upon the waters</i></div>
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<i>Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander</i></div>
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When I heard this song, I just literally felt a moving in my soul and heart that knew I would never be the same because of what the Lord would do through this song in my life. Little did I know that just a couple months later the Lord would call me to trust Him in a way I'd never done before, to let my soul...my whole being...rest in HIS embrace. There are not enough words to express and explain what that has felt like. I pray that as Jesus continues to restore my soul & put the pieces back together that I won't forget to trust Him without borders and to know that He loves this sinner. I'm sure that everyone has heard this song by now, but just in case you haven't or want to hear it again I've put it below. If you do watch/listen to it, hear the Savior's call for you to trust Him, to hold His hand and know that he will hold you and guide you on this crazy journey we are all walking with Him.<br />
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May 9th...Jesus Calling--<i>Don't be so hard on yourself. I can bring good even out of your mistakes. Your finite mind tends to look backward, longing to undo decisions you have come to regret. This is a waste of time and energy, leading only to frustration. Instead of floundering in the past, release your mistakes to Me. Look to Me in trust, anticipating that My infinite creativity can weave both good choices and bad into a lovely design. Because you are human, you will continue to make mistakes. Thinking that you should live an error-free life is symptomatic of pride. Your failures can be a source of blessing, humbling you and giving you empathy for other people in their weaknesses. Best of all, failure highlights your dependence on Me. I am able to bring beauty out of the morass of your mistakes. Trust Me, and watch to see what I will do. (Romans 8:28; Micah 7:7)</i><br />
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Jesus CAN and WILL bring good out of my mistakes. I have to trust that my failings and the things I'm going through can give me empathy for other people in their weaknesses, which I can attest to...it totally has. I have so much to learn...but I have to remember to not be so hard on myself.Jengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-43330573097956034132014-05-03T14:47:00.000-07:002014-05-03T14:47:19.817-07:00Giving up on being perfectAll my life I've been the kid who has always striven for being perfect. I am the first born and carried the responsibility of pleasing my parents all the way into adulthood. In school, I worked hard to get the best grades so that my parents would think I was perfect. I would literally get so worked up about schoolwork or tests and the need to be perfect that I would make myself sick. For too long in my life, I tried to be perfect and make the appearance that everything was ok because that is what we tell ourselves, right? In order to be accepted by others we have to talk perfect, look perfect, and for sure don't let others see our sin because then they would know we aren't perfect.<br />
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Well, I've decided that trying to be perfect is not attainable anymore for me. I can't keep striving to be something I'm not meant to be. I want to be comfortable in my imperfections. I want to be comfortable with the fact that sometimes I talk too fast to the point that others don't understand my words. I want to be comfortable with the fact that I screw up and if someone knows that...it's ok. It isn't easy for me to come to terms with the fact that I'm not perfect. I know it is something that I will battle for a long time, but I've learned in the past few weeks that part of the healing process is learning to be ok with me.<br />
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I feel like the more that I trust in Jesus, the more I become ok with the fact that I'm not perfect. I've learned that He loves me despite my imperfections and that it is ok for other people to know that I am not perfect. Please know that this is a process that I am/will fail on, but I am working on changing this in my life. I want to be ok with the imperfect person that I am...because Jesus loves me.<br />
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Does anyone else feel like they are having to be perfect? How did you change that striving in you?<br />
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~JengaJengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-18121021724419422452014-05-02T19:17:00.000-07:002014-05-02T19:21:43.243-07:00WordsA few years ago I was in the car with my old roomies driving back from Florida and heard "Healing Begins" by Tenth Avenue North. I remember hearing the words and knowing that my heart connected with the song. Most of life I've connected deeply through music and in the past few years I've really started to pay more attention to the words in the songs. If you've never heard this song before, please take a few minutes and listen to them. They are powerful.<br />
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As this song has come back to mind over and again, I love the line in this song: "When you come to where you are broken within The light meets the dark". This one line couldn't be more true to where I've been. I was and am still so broken, but I've noticed that when I've been in those dark moments, the light from Jesus really does shine down through music, His word, journaling or other people. We have such a great responsibility as believers and people that want to love on others with our words and actions.<br />
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Words have the ability to give life or death to people. I've learned in the past few weeks just how much my words mean and impact those around me. As I continue to walk this road of healing & restoration, I'm trying to be more observant of my words and how they come across to others. I never intentionally want my words to cause someone else pain or hurt. I've seen what that causes and it is a deep deep sadness & pain.<br />
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As I continue to grow in my knowledge of Jesus, I'm trusting Him to make my heart sensitive to Him and the more time I spend with Him, I'm convinced the more He will spill out of me through my words and life. May this broken vessel be used by Jesus.<br />
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~JengaJengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-54818864956804004542014-04-22T22:37:00.000-07:002014-04-22T22:37:58.452-07:00VulnerabilityWhat does the word vulnerability or to be vulnerable mean to you? Just the word used to stir unrest and fear in my heart. I would shutter (& still do some times) at the thought of being honest & real with people. My introverted personality wants to run and hide. And trust me...I've done that more times than I'd like to admit. As my eyes and heart have been opened to sin in my life, I've been reading and discussing things from my life that will help me process all these issues with friends & others. One of those things being what does it look like to be vulnerable...for me to be vulnerable. In her book, Daring Greatly, author Brené Brown, defines vulnerability "as uncertainty, risk and emotional exposure". If we are really honest that definition is so true. I've always felt so vulnerable sharing a part of my heart/life and being uncertain how it will be received. There is great risk in sharing a part of you that either may not be understood or accepted by the one you are sharing it with. And that exposes you to hurt, but it also opens up your heart for that person to love you even more. To show you grace when you may not show yourself grace. To love you for you. To be known and to be loved is one of those places that gives great comfort & safety.<br />
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The more that I digest what it looks like for me to be vulnerable, I think the word that goes hand in hand is courage or bravery. When someone is vulnerable with you and shares something about themselves or is just being honest (which is a part of learning to be vulnerable), they are being brave by offering up a part of themselves to you. As I walk this road and learn to be more vulnerable with those around me, may I remember to show love, grace & mercy as people are opening themselves up to me just as I am doing with them, because I know how much courage that takes. This is done by being a good listener, by showing care & being a safe place for your friend, co-worker, family member...whoever to share and be vulnerable with their heart.<br />
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So...what does the word vulnerability or to be vulnerable mean to you?<br />
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~JengaJengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-14898019328172890552014-04-19T00:34:00.002-07:002014-04-19T00:34:36.233-07:00Grace...what a word!As I've been processing through the sin that was pointed out to me and that I talked about in my last post, I am quickly learning that I do not give myself grace. A lot of the times I do not know if I feel worthy of giving myself grace when I screw up, but I always try and give other people grace or forgiveness when I have been wronged. I definitely am not perfect at this all the time. But I do acknowledge that I do not give myself grace or forgive myself as quickly. Why do we as the human race hold our sins over us?<br />
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We all know that Christ died for each and every one of our sins. It doesn't give us the green light to constantly sin, but to know that when we do sin He has borne that sin upon him. He carries that weight for us.<br />
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As I wrestle through and dig deep through trying to figure out how to be better at giving myself grace & forgiveness especially in light of my shortcomings, I think it will come from a overflow of my acknowledging what Jesus did for me on the cross and how much He loves me...you...us. I love this verse...<br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">"<span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">For our sake he made him to be sin </span><span class="crossreference" style="background-color: white; font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-ESV-28882AI" title="See cross-reference AI">AI</a>)"></span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">who knew no sin, so that in him we might become </span><span class="crossreference" style="background-color: white; font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-ESV-28882AJ" title="See cross-reference AJ">AJ</a>)"></span><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 16px;">the righteousness of God." 2 Cor. 5:21</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">~Jenga</span>Jengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-50773146438117908122014-04-17T17:59:00.004-07:002014-04-17T17:59:59.276-07:00Life is Messy...mine included<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Something I love to do is talk and write through things in my life to help me process. Just ask my friends ;) Recently, I've been inspired to pick up blogging again thanks to my good friend, </span><a href="http://steveunwin.blogspot.com/" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;" target="_blank">Steve</a> & his<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> blog, as he has picked it up again recently. Over the past 3 weeks my life has been messy. The brutiful (beautiful & brutal all in one) kind of messy. The kind of messy that is at times crushing and other times rejoicing. The kind of messy that leaves you wanting to cry your eyes out and say some choice words. Forgive me as I unpack this some, because I am still in the middle of figuring all of this out. When I say the word messy sometimes I don't know if that is a descriptive enough word. I have been through some of the hardest hours/days/nights/weeks over the past few weeks. The absolute hardest.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">A sin was pointed out in my life by one of my very best friends that I love and admire that I know had been mentioned to me before, but I didn't really hear it or grasp that sin and the depths of the hurt that it caused. It was told to me that I am passive aggressive in my life. Just putting that out there for the "whoever will read this" is scary. The thought that I am being this vulnerable with something so deep is scary. Terrifying. So, what does passive aggressive look like in my life? It looks like the way that I respond to people can include ignoring someone, being abrupt with how I respond, showing resistance, saying "it's ok" or "I'm ok" when I'm really not, not being honest with others about how I feel...you name it I'm sure I've done it. When I finally took the time to look at what it means to be passive aggressive I wanted to cry because I realized just how poisonous my behavior and sin was in my life. It actually made me sick to read about it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I truly don't know where this behavior came from in my life, but something that I have discovered through being more self-aware is that it comes from a place of fear. Fear of rejection, fear of not being accepted/loved, fear of missing out, etc. I would believe the lies that Satan was telling me and therefore, that would translate into me being very passive aggressive towards those I loved and worked closest with.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I can honestly say that I have not been this broken over a sin in my 15 years of being a Christian. As a result of this sin, I was so far from God. Thinking that I could do this life on my own. Ha...was I wrong or what?!?! One of the verses that has been a source of encouragement during this time is from Exodus 14:14 and it says, "the Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still". I feel like through this revelation I have been still more than I have been in my life. I am like a broken clay pot, waiting for the Potter to mold me and put my pieces back together in a way that reflects Him.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The Lord really does love those He disciplines. It sounds crazy, I know, but it's true. He cares so much for us that he breaks us and then puts us back together to reflect His love. Some of the great things that have come about by me acknowledging this in my life is that I'm learning to be real & vulnerable with those around me. I'm learning what it looks like to be joyful in all circumstances. I'm learning to fall in love with Jesus again. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Another thing I'm learning is that I was in desperate need for Jesus. I'm spending more time with Him in worship, prayer, studying His word and journaling then I have in years and it is like a water running through my life. I don't want it to stop. I never want to go back to how I was. I trust that God is working through me and in me...I will continue to walk this road with Him. In Isaiah 53:4a it says, "Surely He has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows". Jesus is carrying us through all of our lives. He shoulders our griefs and took the weight of them off of us and onto Himself. What a huge thing to try and grasp. Jesus is healing me through this process. It is not fast or painless, but He is faithful. He cares about us---inside and out, good and bad, happy and sad. He cares. I love this line from my devotion about this verse..."He went to the cross carrying our griefs and sorrows in order to be able to support us, strengthen us, help us and heal us. Allow Him to today." Amen.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">~Jenga</span>Jengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-66320260402821472882010-11-06T15:12:00.000-07:002010-11-06T15:12:14.071-07:00I heart football...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEis8AdjN-jHNwj6rDTstXlwW03zQZM_JK8GGfT9sbE-UzarX0ODoAI3IcLTyTBd3qHgy_ArYdbrwjpTUjXdl-gQLztXXDXP39NFk_dnkqpwFiTKEoY5Ef64uHEDFjHVMZA_991yoXo3MtcH/s1600/g_on_black_16001.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" px="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEis8AdjN-jHNwj6rDTstXlwW03zQZM_JK8GGfT9sbE-UzarX0ODoAI3IcLTyTBd3qHgy_ArYdbrwjpTUjXdl-gQLztXXDXP39NFk_dnkqpwFiTKEoY5Ef64uHEDFjHVMZA_991yoXo3MtcH/s200/g_on_black_16001.gif" width="200" /></a></div><div align="center"></div>Today, I got the awesome opportunity to go to my first ever UGA football game. This was a dream come true for this Georgia girl. I grew up hearing all about the Dawgs and actually wanted to go to the school, until I visited in high school and saw how big it was. Too big for this chica! Anywho, one of my roommates and friends, Amy, got 2 free tickets and invited me to go with her. Despite the morning weather being absolutely freezing it turned out to be a beautiful day. One that included blue skies, lots of sun, Georgia football and laughs :) It was a great day! Here are a few pics of the day...enjoy! When is the last time you did something that you've either never done or have always been looking forward to?<br />
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~JenniferJengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-27694647917143440072010-09-18T14:10:00.000-07:002010-09-18T14:10:27.658-07:00I wanna be debt freeeeeeeeeeeeeeee<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.daveramsey.com/pr/downloads/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="Logo" src="http://www.daveramsey.com/media/image/press_room/pr_main_drlogo_0409.png" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div>Well, as of last Sunday I have offically decided to start taking <a href="http://www.daveramsey.com/">Dave Ramsey's</a> Financial Peace University class. A little background on me...growing up my parents weren't very good with their money, so I never really saw how to stay out of debt and save for a future. Subsequently, I came out of college with a large student loan and a credit card that I was told to get so that I can purchase things when I don't have money. Seriously?? If I didn't have money, I should've just walked away, but what did I know.<br />
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I've known about Dave & his radio show for about 6 years, but finally this year I got tired of always having the head knowledge, but never reducing my debt completely. So when my church advertised that they were offering it as a small group class I decided that this would be the best time. They have this thing called the <a href="http://www.daveramsey.com/new/baby-steps/">baby steps</a> in which it gives you a step by step list of what you need to be doing in order to reduce debt and build wealth in the correct order. It really is common sense, but it is amazing what happens when you have accountability whether it be through a class, spouse or friend in order to get rid of debt. I hope to learn more about myself in relation to money, but also to dump some debt and hopefully be completely debt free in the next 24 months. This goal is very important to me and I can't wait to see the debt slowly come down. <br />
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Have any of y'all ever tried to get rid of debt? Have you had any success? I'd love to hear about it!<br />
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~JenniferJengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-72943971009154966872010-09-08T18:35:00.000-07:002010-09-09T18:33:01.529-07:00A Wig, Heels and a Party Dress<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSreRS1wkH7-Gx_vFQD-AKlJcECB2wL88AiRzoa5rLqJ1W4hfJkJCzq5zwQnvGj7GLOqqSxJzu-7qYkMJGldzCc80rtJ98kiNwx_JGmsoQGUOlz3T_qoKfajgjGOpeQKzytnlgu4NU-_Vr/s1600/Alias-logo%5B1%5D.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="160" ox="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSreRS1wkH7-Gx_vFQD-AKlJcECB2wL88AiRzoa5rLqJ1W4hfJkJCzq5zwQnvGj7GLOqqSxJzu-7qYkMJGldzCc80rtJ98kiNwx_JGmsoQGUOlz3T_qoKfajgjGOpeQKzytnlgu4NU-_Vr/s200/Alias-logo%5B1%5D.png" width="200" /></a></div><br />
One of my favorite shows of all-time is Alias which aired for 5 seasons from 2001 to 2006. I still remember watching my first episode at Michelle & Steve's house & thinking I really don't see what all this hoopla is for. Why in the world would someone want to watch someone jump over things exploding while wearing a wig, 4 inch heels & a party dress. <br />
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But the more I watched it & the more I was drawn into the story of the horizon, rambaldi & all his prophecies & the role Sydney Bristow played in the whole thing. If I'm perfectly honest I'd have to admit that I really want to be her. She has this amazing ability to look so cool while kicking butt, saving the world and landing the man of her dreams (oh Michael Vaughn...how I heart you). Now who else can do that?!?!<br />
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I think something that is so interesting is how often times in our lives we desire so much to be someone different than we are. Does that make sense? I am totally this way. I often wish that I was dating someone like one of my friends, or married to the man of my dreams or that I would have kids that I could be a mother to. However, at this time the Lord has asked me to be faithful in what I am doing at this moment. That I am to wait on what is next, even though being patient and waiting isn't necessarily a quality I possess, but know the Lord is faithful.<br />
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Whatever the situation that you may find yourself in, just know that others have felt the same. At some point we all wish that we were in a different place in life or that we could put on a wig, heels and a cute dress and be someone different than who we are in "normal" life. Just trust in the One that holds all of our pieces together for our good. What do you think? Do you see yourself wishing at different times in your life to be someone else or be somewhere else in life? How do you handle the waiting?<br />
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~JenniferJengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-78677587000320577482010-08-31T18:19:00.000-07:002010-08-31T18:19:39.205-07:00More like family than friends...<div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; text-align: center;">Just the word vacation draws up so many emotions in each of us. Many of us have happy memories, laughs with friends, long nights spent soaking up great conversations, mini-trips, enjoying delish food and a host of other things. I simply L.O.V.E vacation. It is something that I plan for many months in advance. I think about where I should go, when, how long I want to stay. My favorite vacation spot that I first went to 4 years ago is Oregon. I truly love going there. Have you ever been somewhere and just felt like you belonged? </div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
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</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; text-align: center;">The first time I ever went to Oregon I cried leaving because for some reason I just felt like my heart was captured by the beauty of Oregon from it's coast-line to the mountains to the easy-going people. Over the past I have discovered my love for the outdoors from the coast to the mountains and everything in between. </div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
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</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; text-align: center;">I've always been a girl that loves being outside, but never knew just how much I enjoy God's creation until I went to Oregon. But all of the nature and sights are not nearly as much fun if you can't enjoy it with others that hold a special place in your heart and it just so happens that I have two families that I am very close with that live in Oregon. As a matter of fact, one of the families is the reason that I first went out to Oregon back in 2006 after they moved there from Georgia.</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;">~Jennifer</div>Jengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-37519092496386768952010-08-27T18:58:00.000-07:002010-08-29T14:26:26.130-07:00What's in a song?One of my new favorite artists is JJ Heller. Have you heard of her? She has a way of singing exactly what I'm feeling in my heart. Here is one of her songs titled "Your Hands". It talks about how no matter how much our world is crushed because of circumstances in our lives or whatever you may be going through, Jesus holds us close & we are always in His hands. Many times in my life I wonder how/where the Lord is in a situation, but it's only after I go through the "fire" that I realize He was always right there with me. We are His--His cares & love for us NEVER end! Thank you Jesus that you never leave us despite how things may seem to us. <br />
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What song is He using currently to help you to heal or encourage you? I'd love to hear of other suggestions :)<br />
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~JenniferJengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-37682044112776466872010-08-25T18:19:00.000-07:002010-08-29T14:02:48.187-07:00A little about me...<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I want to use this post to tell you a little about me :) My name is Jennifer and I was born, raised and now live in Atlanta, Georgia. I grew up a relatively normal child with two parents, a sister and a brother. At the age of 19 my parents got a divorce and it caused me to question so much about my life. During this hard time and even before, I can now look back and see God's hand at work in my life through my circumstances and my friends. The Lord knew who I would need to help me through this very difficult time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">About a year and a half after my parents got a divorce, I realized my utter and desperate need for a Savior and He drew me to himself on January 16, 1999 I surrendered my life. Since that time I've contined to have challenges, but I know that He has always been right by my side. I now live in a suburb of Atlanta and work in the area too. I love soccer, the smell of fresh cut grass, seeing my family, spending time with my friends (near and far), chocolate...especially dark chocolate, beaches, mountains, and really anything outdoors. I definitely do not understand everything, but am glad to follow the one who does. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Do you have any questions for me? Anything you want to know about me?? Feel free to ask and I will answer! Since I'm just starting this adventure, I'm sure that I am missing something :)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia;">~Jennifer</span>Jengahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15569613689751456149noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2677329478891224598.post-72050677957402979722010-08-23T06:21:00.000-07:002010-08-23T06:21:53.803-07:00First-time bloggerHi! Welcome to my corner of the blogosphere world :) I’ve been contemplating for a while now to start a blog and actually made it a goal for this year, so almost 9 months later I’m finally starting this one. I hope to use this blog as a place for me to journal what’s happening in my life and write those thoughts out. We’ll see how this goes. If you have any suggestions or tips, please feel free to let me know. I look forward to this new adventure!!<br />
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